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Preparing for Xmas!

Posted by shinymac on December 5, 2012

So I am the most motivated and excited that I think I have ever been about Christmas. This year I decided, in an effort to save money, I would endeavour to create my own hampers, and make everything in them myself, apart from maybe the odd candy-cane.

I started 2 weeks ago with Limoncello, and have 2 litres sat in the dark in my kitchen, infusing as we speak. I have had some whisky donated by my dad to create my very own version of Bailey’s, although I’m leaving that until a bit later, due to the double cream. I am going to create some delicious Christmas treats, and my pickled shallots are sat pickling in the cupboard, along with jars of grilled peppers in olive oil. Loads is going on!

Mark the Medium told me back in April/May time that I would be far more organised this year, so whether it’s because he inspired me to be, or whether he was actually predicting it, I care not. All I know is, that my kitchen and my larder cupboard are slowly getting filled with wrappings, ribbon, labels, bags, bottles, jars and extra special delights.

I just wish I was making one for myself! 🙂

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Giving up the ghost

Posted by shinymac on March 8, 2010

Last Monday I turned my back on an old friend and started to literally breathe new life into my lungs.
I gave up smoking, and my goodness it’s been a slog, but manageable thanks to the glorious little plasters of nicotine that are seeing me through my days, and nights, and staving off the nasty cravings that plague me without them.
I did have a small lapse on Friday, but I’m back to it now, and determined more than ever before to not give up giving up.

In other news, I am still banging my head against a brick wall, but kind of in another sense, and I’m terrified that it’s going to end in tears, on my part. I am stupid stupid stupid sometimes, but sometimes your heart just takes over and rules everything, and that is exactly what is happening to me, and I just can’t stop it. If only my head had the willpower to overule everything else and make me sensible, and stop me from seeing perfection when in reality it doesn’t exist does it.

I can’t sleep, hence the rambling, and if all else fails, I’ll just blame the lack of smoking. Night.

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Schmalentines Day!

Posted by shinymac on February 8, 2010

Do you ever feel as though you’re banging your head against a brick wall and getting nowhere?
I’ve been feeling like that lately, a lot.
It appears that no matter what I say or how I feel, it is not being understood, in more ways than one, and I just feel exhausted and exasperated with trying to convey my feelings.

I sometimes wish I just didn’t have to face up to reality, that I could just be Mary Poppins, click my fingers and everything gets done for me with no qualms, no worries, no concerns and no issues.

Oh to have the simple life!

In other news, Valentine’s Day is fast approaching, my first in aaaages as a single girl, and I’m not even dreading it. Considering a few years ago on this very blog I wrote about receiving a poem about my breasts written in haste, I’m kind of glad I don’t have to be upset with anyone for not getting anything this year. And I don’t have to get anyone anything too, so it’s a win-win!

I pity those stuck in stressy relationships all worried about what to do, how to force the issue of being romantic, when really it shouldn’t just be Valentine’s Day that you show someone you love them. If you really truly do, then you should make an effort to let them know every day in one way or another.

Maybe next year I’ll change my view on this, depending on my situation, although I doubt that will change, but for now, if it makes me feel better about the lack of roses, or chocolates, or even just a simple card, then I’m sticking with it!

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Chocolate, men, coffee – some things are better rich.

Posted by shinymac on January 29, 2010

Today I met with a friend for “coffee”. Nothing unusal there you may think, unless you really know me, and then you’d know that I don’t actually tend to drink hot drinks. Tea and coffee are just not my bag, but occasionally I’ll have a little sniff as I meander past the Nero’s and the Starbucks of this fair city and just think to myself “mmmmmm, if only it tasted as good as it smelled”. Also, I think I was always a little bit afraid to venture into the hot drinks club for fear it spelled adulthood.

Well dear internet people of the world, today during my coffee meetup, I discovered the most beautiful, delicious mocha coffee, topped with a chocolatey, caramelly, sweetness that just enveloped my tastebuds in pure heavenly delight! And to make it even better, it came from a new independent coffee shop just down the road, rather than a huge chain that funds chopping down bits of the Amazon, or the murder of farmworkers in the deepest, darkest depths of South America.

So as I sat catching up on a few months worth of goings-on, and planning future events, I suddenly realised something – I’m now officially a grown up, and it just doesn’t feel scary anymore.
Tomorrow I may even get myself a proper coffee machine!

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New Baby, New Life, New Start

Posted by shinymac on January 7, 2010

My absence from here has been well and truly noted. I have missed sharing my thoughts, memories and feelings with internet strangers or family, but I have had my reasons.
So many times I have come on and written up draft after draft about what has been going on, and how I felt about it all, but never published any of it – far too much information and personal stuff to share, so please forgive me for that, but it’s been, well, emotional!

To cut a long story short, the Ballad of Sinead and Alex came to an end when Gracie was 4 weeks old. Not entirely my choice, but sometimes love dies, and sometimes you are better off without it, and I know now that I certainly am, well certainly better off without that particular version of it anyway.

It’s been 7 months (!!!!!), Gracie is AMAZING! She has been my strength, so have Evie and Marley, and I know that having them to focus on has seen me through so many terrible times. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had my moments, I still do from time to time, but I no longer think about what could’ve been, or what I should’ve done or said, or what I used to have. Now I think more about my future and what I want from it, and how to go about getting it, one way or another. I still get a little angry, but that’s not about what has happened in the past anymore, it’s more about what happens from day to day, and I just cross each and every river as and when it crops up.

The last 7 months have taught me so much. I now realise how important my family are, and I also have truly discovered how totally amazing my friends are too. There are a couple in particular without whom I would’ve shed more tears, I would’ve felt much more lonely, and I would’ve had a head full of anger and thoughts desperately needing to be vented. One day as I said to one of these friends that I still had many rivers to cross, he said to me: “You do, but it’s up to you whether you struggle to wade through them alone, use a boat, or with a little help, build bridges”. Well this person has helped me to build many bridges, and even carried me across a few of them so I didn’t have to walk them alone. For that, I will always be grateful.

Next post – far less serious and depressing – I promise!

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Oops I did it again!

Posted by shinymac on March 4, 2009

And again, I have deserted this blog for months on end, and neglected it whilst I’ve nurtured the growing baby in my belly instead.
I’m now into my 3rd trimester, and after spending the second not really feeling pregnant, due to having plenty of energy, and feeling good, it’s now catching back up with me, as my boobs have turned into HUGE domes, and I am getting kicked to shreds from the inside out.

I’m still at the council, don’t know if they’ll extend my contract which runs out next month, but I’m hoping they do, so that I can at least have a job to go back to one day.

I’m currently suffering with SPD, a pelvic thing, and have physio (my 2nd appointment) coming up this Friday. I’ve also got glucose in my urine, so have to have a GTT test on Friday as well. Not looking forward to that, apparently they not only stab you with needles, they make you drink a disgustingly sickly liquid to see how well you handle it – mmmmmmm.
Right, well it’s way past my bedtime. I’m only up to give the washing time to dry in the dryer. Rock and Roll or what! x

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All I want is a room with a view

Posted by shinymac on July 22, 2008

First of all I feel I should apologise – I am so sorry I’ve been neglecting you all, and not writing anything, but you have to understand, I have been incredibly busy. Sounds pathetic coming from someone who has the whole day off to herself and only works 4 or 4 and a half hours on an evening, but I honestly have. And this is why…..

Not last weekend, but the one before, I received a phonecall from my aunt in Scotland, asking if her and her daughter, and her daughter’s friend could come and stay. Why of course! As you may know, visitors are always welcomed gratefully in my house. The kids love it, I love it, and well, Alex, bless him, doesn’t really have a choice! Ha!

So, the following day, me and the kids met them off their train, and traipsed back home.
Over the course of the following week, I struggled to come up with fresh ideas of where to take them. As my cousin and her friend are 15, I tried to think back to what I was like at that age (my life centred around the Youth Club, boys, my friends and school), and I found I just couldn’t translate that into the modern day equivalent. I ended up feeling so uncool, and old, and boring! It really hit me that I am 30.
Thankfully I managed to think of something that would please most girls of any age.

So we ended up shopping. Lots and lots of glorious shopping. Well, it would have been glorious, but I, unfortunately, ended up getting depressed and wishing I could afford to do more than window shop and gaze longingly at summer dresses and cute sandals, and beautiful bags. Being on a tight budget in order to afford a holiday will be worth it in the end though, so for now, I just have to grin and bear it.

Anyway, so yes, lots of (window) shopping, and then lots of tears when it was time for them to go home.

Then yesterday something happened which completely lifted my spirits and brightened my mood.
I got a phonecall to say I’d been offered a fantastic new job for a large company based on the 18th floor of a building in Manchester, with AMAZING views over the city. The money is great, the job looks great, and I am overjoyed! I just have a few childcare issues to sort out, but we’ll get there eventually.

Talking of childcare issues, today was the last day my kids had at nursery. I was so worried they would end up crying, but instead one of them decided to regress to her baby days by demanding a nap, then weeing herself whilst having said nap.
It made me realise something though; they’ve had a year at this nursery where they haven’t napped or weed themselves at all, so one little slip on their last day was maybe just a reminder of the massive journey they have both taken, and a last little wave goodbye to toddler-dom as they head towards the school gates.

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Once upon a fairytale….

Posted by shinymac on January 14, 2008

Candy Anthony is my new hero! Her dresses are beautiful, and EXACTLY what I want. However, the price tags and her location are far from ideal.

We want to keep our wedding as cheap as possible, but as elegant and classy as we can make it on a budget too. Impossible? Yep, it could well be. But I WANT a Candy Anthony dress to get wed in, and I’m sad that there is no way in the world I’ll be able to afford one at £2000! So now I need an excellent seamstress in the Manchester area to re-create one of these wonders for me, but I know no-one!

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